I believe in dangerous women
(a love letter to my favorite writers)
I am a sponge, and I try
not to appropriate,
not to ‘eat the other’,
but appreciate, uplift
and amplify the work
of geniuses that history
does not always name.
say her name.
I believe in dangerous women
who care for themselves and
their community like Audre,
prolific poetry-theory of hooks,
I am screaming
Teaching to Transgress
from the top of Kilimanjaro
and traveling to new galaxies,
freedom dreaming through
Binary Stars, with Octavia.
Black women will be the mule
no longer, as we cherish,
and love you, Toni,
from the margin to the center.
we have been doing a series of professional learning with Dr. Yolanda Sealey-Ruiz, and she challenged us to write yesterday an "i believe/i am" poem, using a list of everyday tools/objects, people who inspire us and things we believe in. it was also mixed with a consideration of the continuum of whiteness, and i was drawn back to "eating the other", and how in college, that had been such an important concept to me as i listened to hip-hop, lived in NYC, went to shows, and engaged with the culture. i wrote a lot in zines about wanting to be respectful and not appropriate, and i walk that line all of the time, still 20 years later. i teach about hip-hop, and Black music, all of the time, and i have to be careful to appreciate and share my love for it, but not claim ownership over it. talks of the self and others have been consistent in my classes all year, and all i can really do is be honest and transparent with my students, and with myself.
as I dig deeper, in what Dr. Sealey-Ruiz has titled "the archaeology of self", I was talking to Sampson today about doing anti-racist work with white students. I hope that my work is not construed as white saviorism, but I wonder, as I finish up year 13 of teaching, beginning in Detroit, then the Bronx, and now Ypsilanti, how can I bring this work to the people who need it most? this is why I like to work with professional development and staff, as we know that teachers are mainly white women, but I also want to work with white students. I've started to find small avenues, through trainings and side projects here and there, but will I make the shift? and if not, why?
today the New York Times cover is a visual of 500,000 American lives lost to COVID-19. i commented "I don't know how we begin to recover from this magnitude of loss and Mulay reminds me of societies who have. Genocide is not new. Grief is not, either. We must remember our old was of healing and forge new ways to collectively grieve. We need each other." this is where I am, coming out of the deep solitude of winter, into wanting to be safely together (still virtually, and maybe outdoors soon) to hold space for each other. we have all lost so much, and the only way through is to feel it all, fall apart, pick each other up, take care and rest, and get up again. we have to keep fighting, because we are alive to do so.
